The boy thought about it, and asked, “Grandfather, which one wins?”
The old man quietly replied, “The one you feed.”
It’s so easy to feed the evil wolf; to get stuck in our story about why things are the way they are, why we’ll never be good enough to have the things we want. It’s easy to point the finger and blame people and things, and to resent others for their success; to feel jealous of their good fortune. It’s easy to stay stuck in our anger, and our stories around all the ways we were hard done by. It’s easy to criticise ourselves; to put ourselves down, to tell ourselves why we don’t deserve the things we want, to be mean to ourselves.
It’s easy because we are taught from a young age to feed this wolf. We’re SO experienced at feeding this wolf, that it’s now a habit, it’s unconscious, we easily slip into these old ways and patterns of behaviour, and a lot of the time, we don’t even realise we’re doing it!
It’s easy to feed that wolf, but living that life is anything BUT easy. It’s hard – REALLY hard. We keep ourselves isolated and disconnected. We keep ourselves small, and give away our power. We play victim. We never get to have the things we want, or if we do, we never fully enjoy them. Resentment, powerlessness, anger, lies, greed, inferiority all create tension in the body which block the flow of our life force energy. Over time, this block creates injury, illness, disease, and weight gain.
It takes courage to come from love; to be grateful and appreciative for all that we have, to trust that everything will work out for us, to know that we too can change our life and create that which our hearts most desire. Forgiveness takes courage. Loving ourselves takes courage; treating ourselves with respect, being kind to ourselves, appreciating all the things our body does for us on a daily basis – are all hard to do when you live in a world that tells you you are not enough or worthy of any of that until you look a certain way. It takes strength and courage to feed this wolf, to live this life – Do you think it’s worth it?